After 2 months of not writing, here I am again bugging you with whatever I could bug you about. Mmm, those times that I havent been writing, I was kinda busy with a lot of things. Love, money and social Issues, but then again, here I am again back with new beats. LOL. haha
I just dont know what to say, except that I want to say a lot of things but I really don't know what to say. Maybe I should start at what's buggin me.
This is something that my friend have told me. It's something Like the Alpha and the Omega, the beggining and the end.. Nothing lasts forever. Like relationships and couples marrying saying I do and till death do us part and stuffs like that has, or will end one way or another. It's kinda bothering me a lot.
My friend has been in a relationship for 4 years and 6 months, and all of a sudden they broke up. I don't really know what happened but it's very disturbing. Specially when you are so used to seing both of them together anywhere and everywhere and almost all of the gatherings there is. Seing them so broken and so hurt seems waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy too disturbing. Both of them are really good friends of mine. Sigh.
This I know, The only thing that's constant is change. Pretty much like technology.
The second thing that's been killing me is school. As much as I want to finish college right away, I am soooo bored of everything and anything that has to do with it. There are even times when I dont want to listen. (Except the subjects that I really like.) Maybe it's the teacher or maybe it's me, or I simply dont have enough motivation to keep going.
But when I try to stop, I remember my mom and dad and all the sacrifices that they are willing to take for me to get this freakin diploma, and then I get back on track. My diploma would not just be for me. It would be for myself and my parents, they are really the greatest and I dont want to disappoint them.
I miss a lot of things and I feel so deprived sometimes for reasons I cannot really tell. Sometimes i'm so in the mood to be a hopeless romantic being, and then another time I feel so inspired. I get mixed emotions most of the time.
I am super growing up (not height wise.) but in my mind. maturity is something that comes to you ready or not. It's something like responsibility. It comes, it's unstoppable.
I wish that I have a sibling that's responsible enough to be an older sibling. I hate the fact that I can't have one. Maybe that's why i'm so envious when other siblings are so bonded and they love each other. but then again, you can't have eveything. And I am so saying a lot of things.
Might as well start with my other posts :D
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